The last few weeks I (Megan) have been on an interesting and at times frustrating and painful journey. It started off and largely continues to be a journey of exploration and healing on a physical level, however as I know and as I am being shown more and more the physical is just one layer and my experience is just one layer and there are so many more layers that are all interconnected.
The struggle with the mind is a struggle with the body and vice versa. A struggle with the soul is a struggle with the mind. A struggle in the external is a struggle of the internal. And even while knowing and writing this, the struggle continues. “Trust”, “let go”, “there is no need to struggle” I imagine people saying and even say to myself. At this time I also remember a conversation I had today about this being a SIMPLE concept yet not so EASY to manifest at times.
I spent time with someone in hospital this week. Someone with far more complex health issues than myself. We spoke of the confusion and frustration of not knowing where the physical issues met with the mental issues. A bit of a chicken or egg situation. Which came first? And from my belief system I also started wondering about the soul and spirit aspect for this dis-eased being and now myself and also this planet. I have heard and resonate with the concept of the planet being sick because we as a species are sick. We are disconnected from the earth and nature and therefore ourselves I guess I just feel like I am getting this on another level at this point. I have also been extremely busy over the last few weeks which has impacted on this journey/journeyer. On reflection of this aspect I see where I have stopped caring for the land and nature so much and simultaneously stopped caring for myself and I see the resulting dis-ease. This brings up some questions for me and so I invite you to reflect on these for yourself:
Of what you do in your life…
Why are you doing it?
Who are you doing it for?
Who does it help, who does it potentially hurt?
If you didn’t do it, what would that mean?
Does it need to be there?
May these questions carry you deeper into your self with love for healing.
Before I left school I was asked what I wanted to do, all I could answer was “I want to make people happy”. At that time I didn’t know how but was blessed with a teacher that helped me start down a path that has seen me meet so many beautiful people from so many walks of life. 
